Yesterday I smoked 2 packs of Marlboro Red before I when home. This is the second time a person crying in front of me. First was Zarinah because of friendship… Second was Bahyah also because of friendship. So, I asked her calm down and talk to me what had happened.

I really can’t believe it from what Bahyah had told me. I was SHOCKED and CONFUSED. I really trust and believe what both of them were saying to me but that was the end from it yesterday.

I don’t mind they were gossiping about each other because sometimes they need my help. But the worst was I included. I did nothing wrong to them but WHY ME? The worst was what Zarinah says to her. She should have not says to Bahyah something like that. (Ain’t Lina afraid of god for not praying??? If I were she, I’m afraid.) There is more Zarinah says about me. How could she? We believe her in what she says about everything but NOW… I feel like she is the worst one.

Do You remember this… About what Zarinah says bad thing about Bahyah??

Friday, October 21, 2005

Today was the sickening of the day especially at werk... I get to know that someone is JEALOUS of me... What the FUCK!!! The person was SHE... I really dun know why she must be jealous of me??? I didn't do anything wrong to her... Luckily Zarina tells me.. Zarina was telling me that, SHE was angry and sad that I didn't photocopy the holiday schedule for her because I was photocopying for my company. But she shouldn't say I did the photocopy for my company (my gang group) only... I did the photo copying for them because they asked me... Not for myself... Next after lunchtime, I saw Uncle Patrick and Zarina. I was damn free and came toward them.... And hear again that Zarina break a new report about SHE... this time was cruel... It like I have been cursing by her... Zarina says that SHE was jealous about me and congrat me behind my back that she wants to see me surfer under Derek... OMG!!! I was and .. (Why is SHE behaving like this??

I didn't do anything wrong to her... By the way, DEREK IF YOU READ THIS, I WANT TO KNOW HAVE YOU EVERY TORTURE HER?? Haizzz.... From what I see that, Derek do his own business and she doing hers. There no problem between both of them..!!! Ooooo... I'm angry right now)

Czarina and Uncle Patrick just tell me to relax and ignore about it... (I can relax and ignore... I dun mind if people want to curse me or whatever shit... BUT if anyone curses my family, THE PERSON WILL GET A DAMN VOODOO FROM ME. AND YA, I DUN CARE FUCK OFF. I WILL MAKE THE PERSON DAMN SURFER!

Arrrggghhh…. I really don’t know whom to believe now. I guess stop to believe and just ignore their words. Today is really not my day. Even Patrick Tai notices it and asked me what had happen. I told him about what happen; he says be careful and told me about Zarinah and Aunty Letchmi past stories.

Haiz… OK la, till here.. Anyway, Welcome back Jeneatte… Derek, if you read this, I guess we better beware of what we says to Zarinah.. SHE IS TOTALLY DANGER MOUTH DIEASES... (DMD) We will never know maybe she had tells our secrets to others.