HORRIBLE

Jealous? Sad? Anger? Hypocrite? and Back stabber?... Why is there more this than HAPPINESS??? Why can't there be joy, cheerful, laughter and all the good things happen around me? WHY!!! I HATE IT... Sometime, in the night all I can do is crying and crying. I feel my life is getting more and more worst like NIGHTMARE.

1. My mom having a heart-attack and high blood pressure.
2. Whenever I want to share happiness, there is jealousy.
3. Sadness, surely people thought I want to show sympathy.
4. Telling the truth, people says I show off.
5. Grandma will never come home again.
6. I feel lonely.
7. Sometime, I have this feeling people talks bad thing or word behind me.

I really don't know what to do. All I can do is just ignore and keep myself quiet. When can I get my happiness back? I wish:-

1. Share each other happiness.
2. NO sickness or sadness.
3. My grandma come home so that we can celebrate HARI RAYA together.
4. Occupied myself.
5. Always think positive.
6. NO jealousy. Just be yourself.

But... I think, my wish will never come true. It all under GOD hands and will. All I can do is maintain and try to cheer myself up. Haiz... That all I can said.