As time goes by, I feel that my mood starts to change...
I don't know why?
But I wonder why?
What is happening to me?
Is there something bothering me?
There is nothing... NOTHING at all...

Friday, 09/06/2006, Bukit Gombak Stadium
I walk two rounds with Tan Chin...
Wati take care of our belonging and she seems to be so tired.
As we walk, I tell Tan Chin about it...
She seems to be worried...
She asked me to relax and try to get rid of it.
I tried...
But I can't...

Today, I see, it become worst...
I smoked 3 packs of SKL Cherry Flavour with Menthol all by myself.
I wonder around in Singapore doing nothing.
Sit at the seaside..
Day dreaming...
Wonder what going to happen in the future...
Am I stress??
I don’t think so...
Received few messages from my members...
Didn’t bothered to reply...

Reach home, my parent look at me with one kind of face.
They asked me what happen...
I just reply NOTHING...
Straight away go to my room.
I rest myself on the bed.
Look at the ceiling.
Daydreaming again...

Oh dear, what is happening to me?
I wish my I can be myself back...

Not in good mood today... Tears drop in front of my two gals... Haiyah... NIwae, luckily Razif and As cheer me up... I think without them, I'm surely in really damn farking sad... Thanks guys...

In class, I feel damn sleepy and bored... So, I draw this picture about yesterday....


Meet up my members... HAhaha... There is this one part, Mamat was drunk due to drinking too much alcohol.. Not only 1 but 3 bottles.... And out of sudden he stand up, fall and roll down into the big drain... Luckily, it is not that deep... hahaha... He some more he can shout, IT RAINING!!! Crazy.... His gf, was there so panic and for us were laughing... Yusoff, Aaron and Mizi bring him up... Since it kinda of late night, we send Mamat back home first... His mother kinda of shocked and nagg at him because of the wet... His mother says, next time just leave him down there... We just laugh and smile and thanks his mother.. From there, we all went home separate ways...

Morning, Mamat call me. He says, what happen yesterday... I tell him everything and he laugh all the way...

Here are some drawing that I draw during my lesson...

After school, went for my lone ranger study... But out of sudden, Nirma pops out and says she wants to join. I tell her no need la, I can be by myself.. She replied I pity you la... Haiya... THis Nirma ah... So, we study and study.... Until there is this one topic damn bluddie idiot I can't understand. Until Hassan and Nirma explain and explain and at last I understand... Hahaha... While study, I receive a message from my friend... I read it and my eyes turn wide... Hassan and Wati look and me and I tell them Xcuse me... Outside the CAFE 1, he called me up and asked me something... But, i says... (SECRET) Went back in, they look me one kind and this Nirma keep pestering me what is it... So, I let her read and she also shocked...

At about 8.30pm, we went home...

My mom wake me up early morning because she heard me shouting of pain and crying while I'm sleeping. Actually, there is nothing and ya, I didn't dream of anything... So, I go back for my sleep..

Damn sleepy and lazie to go to school today.. For the sake of the 2 hour lesson of BIO... I need to go... In class, caught sleeping by ROY and my two galfwen.. Haiyah.... Not only that, today we volunteer for the stacking and preparation for the tomorrow blood donation event. Poor Lina kena bullie and was asked to wear the RED DROPLET! (Luckily not me) It was Hassan and Django.. Hahaha. I really burst my laughter out loud...

Den, I go around to the cafe 2 and I saw this guy. Actuallie, me and wati saw him yesterday... At the lift... Hehehehe... I asked him and his group friend to join the blood donation... But turn out he says about the yesterday at the lift... Hahahah... Don't want to waste my time, I just replied sorie la... Can't talk that long... Need to work... hahaha... I walk away with a big smile... hahahaha ( NOTIE LINA) So, I went back and saw my group friend is going to other direction... I walk as fast as possible and I tell Wati about what happen... She says haiayh regret la I didn't follow you...

While waiting for the other group..., Wati, Tan Chin, Hassan and me were sitting at the table together with cute teacher.. As usual, I turn to be crazy lady made them laugh...Guess what... This yellow t-shirt cute teacher says that I got a baby face. hahahaha.... (KEMBANG SEKEJAP AKU) hahahah....

At about 3 plus... Inside the train, my maddness come again... The gals keep on laughing.... Haiyah... Susah la... Reach CCK, Wati went home... Left me and Tan Chin... This cute gal also, laugh and laugh.... Crazy! We go AMKH just to collect our CHEQUE $$$$.... Den, I asked Tan Chin to follw me go to Therapy Department (Where I used to work).

At first I tot I was in the wrong place... NO!!! All the uniform was change... hahahaha.... Yellow T-shirt (TA) Light Blue (PT and OT) It looks like the therapy have rainbow.. Hahahaha.. So, in to the office... They were shocked! But this Sharon Foo ah... Pampered Tan Chin by giving her sweet and chocolate and left me all alone... So sad... Just because I didn't go for the bowling... She ignore me... Then, I made her smile that I will go next week...

I tot of going shopping alone... But at last, I end up meeting and chatting with my group of friends at our secret location... Damn nice, my fwens blanja me... Yummy.... Hehehehe....

K la, I gtg...

What a shocked!!! Wake up late at 6.00am and get out of the house at 6.30am... I tot I was late for school. Reached school at 6.55am... Wat a waste of money only... Niwae, I give the taxi driver a extra charge becuase of his speeding... Hahhahaa....

Get my BIO Phase Test result... Guess what! I get 53% only... Hahaha.... See la... Sit again at the drain never study... Hahahaha.... What I know, my last page of the test paper score 1 1/2 out of 10 only... HAhahaha

So... school as per normal.. NS lesson was good and fun today... Hahaha... Damn cold... I guess the temperature in the room was like 15 degree celcius... Farking freezing!!! Den, this Hassan keep telling me if I want a towel or not... Nearly 5 time he asked... Haiyahh... (Thanks for the concern)...

After school, Wati, Django and me sit at the Cafe 1... Chit-chatting about GHOST.... Hahahaha... Den out of the sudden, this Django was saying something that shocked me and WAti.... Fuyoo... I was damn curious and wonder why that person think of that.. Haiyah.... Niwae, Django don't want to tell us who is it. I keep pestering him... But he just give me a big white teeth from his smile... Haiyah... Susah La... At last I give up... Don't be bother of asking anymore... Wateva that person wants to think just think la....

Inside the train, Wati keeps smiling and laughing at me... Crazy dude! Wati came over to my place to update her friendster... 11.22pm she went home... Hahahaha... K la, I want to sleep already...

This is my last drawing for today... It seems that my X-MEN WOLVERINE turn to ugly one... Hahaha... NO mood already... K la people... Adios! Tata!

NS Phase Test 2 today... Hmmm.... I pass... Chit chat while waiting for the others... 2 of the classmate was shocked and surprised that I smoke... Hahaha... They said I look decent... Fuyoo... Me decent?? Wait long-long....

Piss off with him.. He become more sturborn and worst attitude. Totalie speechless the way he react to me... Haiyah... Can't says much. Complain to my two gurlfwen... They were shocked of what happen...

Niwae, control my anger and sad by drawing something... This is my

X-MEN STORM

Not only that, I draw this BITCH... I don't know who... Just too angry la...

K la, I want to draw more pic... Anything I just put it on my blog!!!

Yesterday, all alone in the train.. Wati wasn't with me. Guess what! She wakes up at 6.30am... (the time we should meet up) Ayola.... But nevermind.... So, inside the I sit down and feel very drowsy it seems like I'm going to get sick. I closed my eyes and fall asleep...

Reach school, fuyoo.... I really cannot tahan already... Tan Chin bought for me a cup of milo n I can't finished it... I feel my head is going to burst and I'm going to vomit anytime. So, I asked her for 1 panadol...

Inside the lift, I feel like floating.... So, quickly get in the class. Mak Ler, was asking me... Still sleepy is it?? I replied not feeling well... She complaint it to Ms Chow... Haiyah... I sit down and try to concentrate but I can't. Mr Shahril (my classmate) gave me an oilment... (Nice smell) and Tan Chin helps me to massage my head... Then this Tan Chin, Wati and Roy nag at me to go to the doctor for check up... I said OK-OK... I get scolded from my two friends... Haiyah, said okie-okie but later never go... Sturborn... I give them a SMILE!

During lunch time, I can't eat... No appetite. I see food, I feel like vomit out. Mati la.... So, I buy a strawberry juice. Nice drink... Den this Wati buy Tomato juice.. She asked me to taste... I give it a taste... And it was damn awful... I ran to the toilet and vomit all out... Oooo....

At Ms Chow lesson.... Again practice for our Monday Vital Sign Test...(Django and Hassan seats had been occupied by the aunties) Hahahaha... I didn't concentrate much... Too cold... Roy and Tan Chin check my BP and Temperature. My result was high BP and 37.5 degree Celcuis... Then, I tell Tan Chin I was damn cool... Tan Chin switch off the fan and tot of givng me Panadol again.,.. But was stop by Roy because I didn't eat anything... Then, this Tan Chin go to Hassan asked for his jacket... She cover up me... But I still feel cold...

About few minutes, I asked Tan Chin to follow me go to the toilet... There again... VOMIT all out... Haiyah... At 1.00pm, Ms Chow out of sudden her boiling head pop out... She nags at us because didn't do the Vital Sign practise correctly. The class was completely SILENT... Me and Wati, still smile and whispering... (Notie)

Going home time, I bring along Hassan jacket home and luckily, Kak Nor'Aini booked a London Taxi for the 6 of us... I was shocked at first that why she do that and the total amount was going to $30.00. Damn xpensive. She says NEver mind-Nevermind. Wati, Tan Chin and me feel bad... So, 1st time in the London Taxi, I sit down next to the window.. I was wrong! I should not sit beside it.. I tell them, I'm going to vomit... Tan Chin quickly gave her plastic... But I try to control, Tan Chin also asked me to eat her Masam manis sweet... I feel a bit better. Ooo...

At home, I feel a bit better... But my head still wobbly. I quickly prepare for the items to our project... While they prepared, I take a snap of our photos and cook some MEE HOON HONG KONG for them.. Most of them, says NICE n SEDAP!!! hahahaha.... At last, our project finished. Another halfway to go... YIPEE!!!

Today morning... I wake up, and see double vision.. Try to stand up, I fall down...Fuyoo... my butt hurts sey. My mom came in and says Are You OKIE?? I say yap... She says that at nite, I was screaming and shouting of pain.. I was blur at the moment... I replied nothingla... In my heart, I was asking myself HUH? I DIN'T DREAM ANYTHING.... JUST NOTHING...

So, I locked the door and off she go to her work.. So, I continue my sleep...Now, I dream of something... (I forget what was it...) I wake up at 9.30am...My youngest sista cooked a simple dish for our breakfast. I eat it as normal.. All of sudden, my throat can't accept it. I quickly ran to the toilet, and vomit all out again.. At about 11.00am, Tan Chin arrived... What a shocked..! I'm not yet bath!!! Fuyoo... Den, I tell her, you write the minutes and I go for my bath... So, we continue our project...At 2.00pm, at last we finished everything... YIPEE!!! So, damn hapie...

Early morning as normal... Only the 2 of us... Wati n me... Den Hassan... Reach class got my sleepy head. Hahaha... But this "Mak Ler" (giving by Django) out of sudden call Mark asking what our name?? N I was like OMG! (sudden wake up) lol.... So, Mak Ler come toward our areas and asking our name. I gave her my short and simple name... But sturborn head wants my full name. Guess what, she pronounce it wrong! Den Wati... At last, Mak Ler decided to know our name... For 5 week studying, she didn't know our name... Hahaha

Well, I was label as Longkang (Drain) Gal... Because of the last Saturday... Haiya... Niwae, coming soon there will be more... By right, Django going to be the next Longkang Man... But too bad... His body mechanic rescue him... Haiyah...

Niwae, by right our NS was for 5 hours... But luckily to some changes it end up at 3 hours only... Thank GOD! Otherwise, we all will get bored doing the same all thing again and again... But, tomorrow lesson will be as usual... BORING! Our jalan2 to BUGIS has to be cancel... Inside the train, we were talking and worried about Django... We all tot that Django going to be out of the group due to miscommunication and changes of leader. Lucky ah.... he still in. If not, susah la... Hahaha....

After school, Tan Chin, Wati, Hassan and me go to Jurong Entertaiment and IMM... Tot of buying the second hand watch... But nothing much nice... Hmmm... Cancel.... Den, we go to Daiso to buy for our project items.. Too bad, Tan Chin unable to stay late with us... Sob2... So, after we went shopping at Giant... Buy Foooddd!!! Not me... Wati and Hassan....

After the tired walk, we decided to sit at the B.K... Sit chit chatting... Out of sudden, I was in shocked to see Shanaz... They looked at the direction of what I was shocked about. I just gave Shanaz a wave hand... She smile like.... ( I don't know la wat to said) So, Wati was asking me... Eh, why is she don't want to come to say Hi to us?? Shy ah with her friend??? I jsut replied don't care la.. As long she happie that okie... Den about 20 mins, Shanaz walked in front of us n same thing happen... This time, she ignored us... Haiyah.... We kinda of shocked.... Well, just ignore of what she done... Haizzz.... Long talk... decided to make a move... Well, guess what, Giant alphabet G is on fire at the top og the letter just like the candle... Hahahaha.... Walking in the dark, something happen... Very funnny... Sorie ah (Secret) Don't want to make this person MALU... Hahahahaha... Laugh all the way to Jurong East MRT... Even Wati n me also laugh out loud...

Niwae, reach home at 10.30pm... K la, I gtg... Settle my project... Tata!

Early morning when I reached at J.E.... I see my two closed friends were studying for their test... Fuyoo... As for me, I was listening happily to my MP3... To see my two friends stress, i decided to made a joke... N ya, non-stop laughing action from them... Hehehe....

At the L.T where we take our BIO Test... Fuyoo, most of them were heart beating so fast... Hahahah.... But to my surprised, the test was damn chicken feet.. Only the last short question I didn't manage to crack my brain because I'm damn too lazy... Silly me... After everything end, I turn around n wanted to see Wati... But not, I see Hassan and show two thumbs up with my BIG smile.. Hahahahah....

Hmmm... when school end, about to reach my station, Tan Chin, Wati n me make a last mintue decision. Want to where??? Hahaha... Non other WATCHING MOVIE at Woodland Causeway Point... Yipeee.... Tan Chin received two free ticket... But the hell was we need to queue damn farking long for just a ticket... Hmmm... We watch Poseidon... Quite interesting, sad and and a bit of disgusting deaath... Guess what, we get a sit just nice for three of us at the 3rd row from the front. N ya, since I'm tall, I need to slide down my body downwards. Backache for the moment.. INside the movie, the 3 of us laugh and chat about what going to happen next...

After the show finished at 8.30pm, decided to release our urinary bladder. Guess what, I saw Haslene. Quite a shocked.. I was asking her, what she doing here and who she with... She repleid that she was watch the same movie as us. But not with her husband with other mat motor guy... What a shocked men... I wonder what going to happen if her husband found out she going out with another guy... Fuyoo... Surely MATI! The 2 gals also shocked of what happen..

At the KFC... Hmmm... The 3 of us bought a buddy meal. I just eat the spicy burger. That burger also I didn't managed to finished it up. But to my 2 friends force, I eat slowly and at last finished... Sian ah... We chat and chat of our life and secret till 10.30pm... Tot of continue talking but too bad, tomorrow sch at 8.00am. So each of share money $$$ for our BLUE 240 Taxi... Hahaha... Poor uncle has to send us home from 3 different direction. To my kind, I give him another $1.00 xtra...

Oooo... My brain going to crack soon... Tomorrow will be the day of SCARY DAY!!! hahaha... Non other our BIO SCIENCE TEST.... Arrrggghhh.... I wonder how my friends doing?? Hahaha.... Haiyoh... For me... only some that already inside.. The others subject??? hmmm... Not yet... I guess when I'm out of the school, you all will see my hair turn white or loss of hair... Hahaha...

Didn't call him for the whole day... Too busy study... At a bout 6 plus.., he call up and scold like shit. I tell him the truth and he accused me... And hang up the phone. Ooooo.... I really don't know what is wrong with him. Then I received a called from Jeeva.. Poor Jeeva fall ill. She told me she never study at all... ALAMAK! Another creation of me... Hahaha...

Niwae JN 0604 G... Wateva you can answer to the test is fine. At least you put some effort..
K-K-K... So, once again... Good Luck!

Tot of meeting him early just to settle something... But end up I was lock outside his house for 1 hour.. What a waste of time. His mother apologised for the incident. They were over slept. (Wateva!!!)

So, we went out... we chat-chat-chat about what happening... From what I see, he doesn't care already.. I relax myself and cool off... Out of sudden, he shouted at me... I was shocked for a moment... But this time, I don't give him a damn.. I fight back... Who the hell is he to scold me.. End up, we both went to separated ways home (not yet break up). I cried... Haiyah... In the bus, I look like as if this is the end of it... BUT NOT! I tried to control and told myself life must go on...

Reach home at 6.30pm... Tot of study for my monday BIO test paper... When I see it, damn... I'm too lazy.... I on my msn... See the friendster, add some of them in... After that, nothing much can be done...

At about 11.30pm, I decided to go out.. Sit at the big drain near my neighbourhood block. Look around relax my mind. Fuyoo... I received a call from Wati... She was asking where I am, what I'm doing and etc... I was shocked that how she knows where I am.. I replied the question she gave me... She says better go home... Another few minute later, I received a message from Django... Same thing same question... Same replied... Den, another message receive from Hassan... also the same thing... hahahahahaha....

Wati, Django and Hassan thanks for your concern and be there for me. I really appreciate it... I wish you all good luck and pass ya test!!

After school, we decided to watch a movie... But poor thing was Hassan unable to make it... Haiyah... Leceh la...The Gals meet the Guys at Kembangan... As normal, Laugh and laugh.. Non-stop.... We alight at the Douby Ghaut MRT and go to the new Mall... THE CATHAY.

Wati, Django, Tan Chin and Me watch X-Men The Last Stand. Nice, romantic, cool and x-tra happening la... Hahahhaah.... In side the cinema, Wati and me was laughing. Aniwae, nothing much I can said... Just watch it poeple... Don;t miss it... THis time around Good and the Bad LOST!

Everything was okie.. Until I reach home and call him up... This time, I realise that he had change to worst.. I kinda of regret but it kinda of waste just to realise like that. I can't believe that, he says that thing only bring him happiness.. I msg my fwen... n tell him about what had happen... He was shocked of what he did to me...

Now, I'm totalie lost and confused.. If I were to break up with him, it kinda of waste the 3 year relationship and if I listen to him, I rugi... Because the happiness was him not me... Haiyah... Please help me...

In the class, Wati n me were busy drawing... Not listening to our class advisor... Hehehe... Not only that, I didn't know that Wati can do such a nice drawing... ooooo....Haha....

During our break time, Wati was talking about Mark... Django as normal, disturb Wati... Hahaha... Until Wati get bored and complaint to me and Tan Chin... HAhahaha... But all we can do was to laugh and laugh and laugh....

At the L.T... Woah, damn boring.. All was talking and talking and talking.. Nothing much we learned.. So, Wati n Me draw...

This is done by ME

Wati draw this... Cute and NICE!!!

Hassan drawing

Below this pic, a combination of Me, Wati and Tan Chin

One whole day, I didn't get to slp... In the dark of my room, trying to get slp also cannot... Till now, I tried but I can't. I tell my friend about it... They say I might be stress, thinking of problem or something disturbing me.. Well, nothing... NOTHING at all... Hmmm...

Not only that, in class I used to sleep but not for today.. AWAKE! Disturbing Nirma about denture... Pretending not to have a denture... Hahaha... Oooo... What wrong with me??? Haiyah... Niwae, I having a great time..

Ooo.... I have been sleeping all day today not even today only for the past few days also the same.. Fuyoo... Nothing get in my head. Even Nirma wakes me up, I fall asleep back.. Too damn sleepy. Not only that, the way the class advisor teach was too much talking... Most of my classmate caught me sleeping but I don't know about my class advisor.. Haha!!

Haiyah!! I wish tomorrow will be my wakie up day!! Must concentrate on my Bio already. Test is comiong.. YEsterday was my Nursing Studies test regrading about the transfering. Well, my class advisior says that our class pass no one failed. GOOD!!! But I was damn angry to the invegilator ... There is this part she question me... Give me 3 Cs... So, my answer was corbell, comfort and cotside.. She replied no, that not the answer I want. So, I asked her to repeat it again. TWICE! at last I get it... The answer was Comfort, Safety and Belt.

In my heart I was cursing the advisor... I came out and fell very angry I feel like I want to shout... Arrrggghh!! Luckily I control, but still cursing around with my fwen... hahahaha....

K la, till here... Need to wake up and meet Nirma and Tan Chin at 7.0am Jurong East MRT... So, see ya...

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Early morning, Nirma break record of coming first at our meeting point. Hahaha.... Late because of Tan Chin... (Wake up late la) Reach school just in time. The three of us still got time to buy breakfast. Before that, my dear Nirma was damn blur.. After going down the bus, she wanted to talk to me.. But all of sudden, I saw her talk to a boy. Hahahahaha... Well, she was shocked and paiseh not only that, the boy also smile... Hahahaha...

During class and LT lesson, I fall asleep. Usually, I will be talkative. This time, Nirma was curious why I'm so quiet. By the time she turns, she found out that I was so peacefully sleep. It because of the boring talk by the teachers.. Hahahahaha...

Going back at 3.30pm... Very late because of make-up lesson. After the lesson, we went to Simei BAnquet and MAKAN!!!! Well, I treat them. (Nirma, Tan Chin, Roy, Hassan and Django) We laugh the whole day... Especially me the most.

Non-stop laugh till we get separated home... Sob2... Niwae, there will be tomorrow... Hahahahaha.... That all!!!

Yesterday was a memorialble day of my life. My two classmates Tan Chin and Nirma Wati bought me a handphone chain. It was so damn nice and I feel like I'm afraid of using it. How sweet of them... LUV YA LADIES!!!

Roy sing for me at the Admin block together with 2 ladies... So very the malu... Hahaha.... Niwae, thanks GUYS.

Didn't go for my rick climbling.. Muscles cramp every where... Fuyoo... But, I still jogging at room.. HAhaha... Crazy me..

K la, till here,.. Can't wait for tmrw... Heehehe will be old soon... TAta

YipeE!!! Today is the day I will be 20.. Hehe.. Niwae, I 'm a bit sad.. Because my BF forget about my birthday.. HAizzz... I really can't forget about that.. I think not only him... But, I was shock that, a guy (Asbullah) who just know me for a few months wish me in the midnight at 12.06am. WOW! But that time, I was asleep.. Hehehe...

Niwae, I have nothing much to said... Well, wish me luck and all the best especially I wish I can get a goal and pass my examination...